I want love and hope and happiness. Why don’t I deserve that? Why was I dealt the cards that I was? Am I really that terrible to deserve to feel so lost? How do I find myself? Where do I go? What do I do with my life? Will I ever be loved? Will I ever feel secure in who I am? Why do I hate my body? Why am I so fat? Why am I so hairy? Why do I have to hate food so much? Why do I hate food and still crave so much of it? Why?
Will I ever recover?